So today is a beautiful sunny day in Dorset…I’ve been able to appreciate it from my bedroom window; I can feel the warmth of the sun on my face.

My body aches all over, I’ve had a change in my treatment to deal with some of the most unpleasant side effects, but the new medication warns that muscle and joint aches are common side effects. I can vouch for that! Every movement is a huge effort.

Nevertheless I put on a brave face this morning to take my kids to school; since Michael’s death they’re finding the act of getting ready to go to school extremely difficult so I’ve figured that when I get up and encourage them to get ready they are more likely to go to school.

I returned to my bed to a very deep sleep, which has not taken away the achy feeling. So, although the weather outside is beautiful, a dark cloud hangs over me today. I think I’m going to need more than just sunshine to lift this one.